how can i ever describe my hatred for IA?

there's simply too much unhappiness to name

one incident today.

I was having serious headache and I tot I could hang on till end of the day. If tat place were other place, perhaps i could. I couldn't hang on with the headache at a place with stagnant and super dry air. It makes my head spin faster.

I suppose go school to do some experiment on friday. So i tot maybe i could do it today so i can finish up my stuff earlier and get some rest at home. Futhermore, I think my headache would be less serious at some other place due to better air and ventilation.

this is wat happen..

me: XXX, can i go to sch today instead of tomorrow? then tomorrow i'll stay at the company.
XXX: i don't think is possible because shumin will be at instron and no one is here to monitor the drop tester.

I sian1/2 and is obviously showing from my face.

XXX: is tat ok?

me thinking: of cos ok lah.. i got no choice wat. ask me ok for wat? wat if i say i'm not ok?

I walked out of the lab for some fresh air outside the building.

10 mins later I went back. Deciding to try again

me: XXX, can i go back to sch today instead? i'm having serious headache and the air in here is making it worse. the air here is too stuffy.

XXX: hmmm.. ok lo.. but u really have to get something done today since the last 2 times u went back to sch with nothing much done. (he must be thinking tat i intend to go off and nv do anything in sch)

me: hmm.. ok. (I thought: bloody hell, he was looking at some website and still have the cheek to tell me that no one is there to monitor the drop tester? he only need to get up a few times to check the sledge of the drop tester and to continue the drop. Fine)

me: YYY, i'll be going to sch today. So i do the failure analysis tml.

YYY: huh, tot u'll be goign tml instead?

me: ermm.. i'm having headache and the air here is making it worst.

YYY: wat's wrong with the air?

me: too stuff and dry.

at this point of time, the other engineer of their kind starting laughing. the kind of "this-is-nonsense" laughter.

fine.

XXX: can u leave during lunch?

fyi, that time was like 11 plus and i already have nothing to do. why do i have to wait?



my attitude for IA has becoming worse. with lots of MCs and laziness. I wonder how they are going to grade me. But on the other hand, I've done all that I am required to do.