I should learn how to be contented with life. I tend to keep comparing with others who has got better things than me, who enjoy life better than me. I questioned myself, 'What about those that do not have as much luxury as I do?" I was dumbfolded.
I should slap myself. I deserve it.
Why do I keep looking at the bad side of my life? I have so much wonderful 'assets' which i should appreciate and count myself lucky.
My 'assets' include, my family.. my luck of getting into NTU.. my friends.. bert.. ppl who are concern about me.
Looking back at the life i used to have, I am rather lucky.
I always got into schools and courses of my first choice. I am really lucky to have my family with me. Although sometimes parents tend to show their love by nagging non-stop. They meant well.
Today's mother's day. I sms my mom, "happy mother's day, I love you!". Yes, i feel proud and happy to let her know how I feel. I do not have to courage to say in her face. And when she returned home today, I didn't dare to look at her when she talked to me. why? simply because i send her a sms which makes me feel embaressed. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way.. Sad to say, somehow, we do.
How many ppl actually kiss their parents goodbye whenever they leave for work or for sch. Yes its mushy. But isn't what makes mommy and daddy happy although they do not say it out?
I wish to hug my daddy and say thank you for everything. I appreciate things that he had done for us. But till today, I do not have the courage to do it.