wat the hell am i doing?

its freaking 5.35am now.. and i can't sleep. i'm so freaking awake!!!!

maybe i should read some books.. it hypnotises me!

i had a conversation with angel jus now..

i told her something is wrong.. something is darn wrong..

guess she would be the one who understand my situation most now cos she's in the same shoes as me...

so .. wat is wrong?

sometimes when we are doing the wrong things.. we didn't realise it..

and we need ppl to tell us tat we are doing the wrong things..

however.. in our sub consious mind.. the devil always win the angel..

thing about it..

if everyone ard u is against wat u are doing.. maybe they are right..

but in ur own world.. you jus think tat wat u r doing is darn right and u simply ignore their words for good..

so in my consious mind now.. i start to ponder..

am i doin the right thing?

if i am, why are ppl around me against it?

well, i tot i was right. but i guess i am wrong..

angel and i ought to do something about it...

slap ourselves and think hard...

if u realise, the harder u think, the harder the devil tries to drag u to where he is..

wat happen to the angellic side of us???

why are we always affected by the devil?

stab the devil in me..

i wanna change life..

i wanna change it to wat i wan

i spend the whole day thinking of wat i wan..

and i finally came up with something..

i hope i can live up to my words..

its a promise for myself and no one..

cos i live for myself...

i know i'm getting abit self-centered here..

who doesn't?

i wanna be the original eunice..

stop having split-personality... (cos i think i have)

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i can't really describe the feelings i have in me now.. they are mixed up.. jus atoms during a reaction.. jus running around the place like no body business.. and its a exothermic one i swear.. cos i might jus explode one day if i cannot take it..
whaha.. i'm using such scientific terms.. where is my catalyst?? i need them to speed up my ability to sort things out..

i have so much to say.. my vocab is limited.. i can't put it in nice wonderful words which able to 100% explain how i feel at this very moment..

all i need now....
time... more time.. 24 hrs a day aint enuff for me..