i have to work more and play less..

seriously speaking.. i ain't checking up with my sch work..

i know its time for me to pull up my socks and buck up

i've been in my confort zone for too long..

too long to be good..

i used to have the theme, work hard and play hard..

i needa a balance..

somehow.. the weight of playing jus keep sinking in a weighing balance

needless to say the working part keep rising in the weighing balance

i really wanna study... but whenever i open my book at night.. it jus hypnotises me..

i'm too tired to study everytime...

i must find a day go out study myself...

i once have confidence in myself and always say..

'i must walk into a exam hall very confidently and walk out confidently as well'

i'm not trying to be hao lian or wat..

this mission of mine was with me all the way from sec sch..

its not being arrogant..

it simply means..

before i take the exam i must know all my stuff..

and when i step out of the hall.. i must know tat i havn't make any big mistake

tat's the requirement i have for myself

doesn't my rule still apply for now??

apart from studies i also have hell lot of other stuff to think about..

i swear this isn't a good time of my life..

who would wanna walk with me??

god?

i've long lost touch with him..

and i'm too guilty to go back to him..

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one person ever told me.. watever unhappiness it is..

take it as a dream..

and dun think about it anymore..

i have to admin it works sometimes

let by gones be bygones

yes. easier to be said than done..

how many ppl can actually do tat??

take it as a dream..

when u wake up.. jus tell urself..

come on. face it. its a dream. not reality.

i remember once i did post something about dreams..

yes and i still love dreaming.. despite tat when bad stuff happens, I take it as a dream..

to all my frens out there..

if ever u feel tat something is not right..

take it as a dream..

or alternatively,

look at the positive side..

it might be a blessing in disguise.

remermber, things happen for a reason..


p.s: i'm being emo again..